Post from yesterday.

Sorry I do not video chat. I look awful all the time . Due to background checks I have been banned from employment in my town. Seems town council thinks pornstar is not safe with the public. I have no car no money just enough for rent and I live from food bank which gets less and less each month. I live in a room no tv no WiFi no Computer no bus money .No family or friends. No reason to live . I pray each night to die. So alone. Cannot walk much due to pain.so here I sit alone no radio. Slowly going insane. I cry most of every day. Take sleeping pill to sleep as long as I can.i have no one to tAlk to. I cannot bear this life.it never gets better. I have never made a cent from adult films since 2006. Never made a penny from internet ever ever. Please this not meant for sympathy.just know that all the vulgar comments are monitored by town council. And they think I am the person they see on films .but I am not ! It was a job I stayed at 49 yrs of age because I wE living in a shed for more than 7 years .Please know I am just going to a early grave. Loneliness will kill me way before my time. How long can a person sit in a room with nothing to do? I fear jail would be better at least you have someone to talk to.i do not. Please no video chats. I cannot fiquer out how to shut it off. I need better Glasses. Dana Hayes died long ago.