trying not to. pissed again btw. a professor published a book and him and i have become friends on fb (over science-y stuff) and he gave me a copy. he's a great human. we had a few and talked about how social media is destroying critical thought. and about lsd. .............. the last time i texted her (drunk)i was gambling and she lives near the casino. i found out she was in jamaica. with some old guy. she'll tell me shit straight up (i'm baffled by this) . but i literally want to explode. i don't give a fuck about her bf . he's just some kid to me. that's the weird thing. i don't have the right to be jealous or asked if she's fucking this dude. one of these days, before i fucking drop dead, i'll tell you the craziness of the past few years.