JFN disorder. Just fucking nuts.

Actually Aspergers doesn't really fit. He talked about his life being satisfactory in all aspects up to aging. He was reasonably happy so he said with his life and had friends and loved ones and good associations. He did say that the thought of suicide was something he had entertained for many years. [couldn't get it out of his head] and the whole recording it and years of planning it and time it took to write it down is extremely narcissistic to me at least.