honestly, it's not about the scene. personally i felt the scene was shit and wouldnt put it out myself. the girl gave a shitty performance, i gave a shitty performance.. i wont argue that. I have given very few bad performances and will cop to any, especially any that have sucked that bad. maybe this should not have been said the way it was publically, it was me ranting off of quite a while of build up.

The scene was not even the center of that, in fact it was a minor event that affected my opinion very little. I will be the first to say it was shitty. I spoke with Jimmy D about it afterword and we had a long talk about everything wrong with that. maybe part of what changed my opinion was that you basically blew Jimmy off like an old coot who could impart no kowledge to you that would be worth learning. That is a man that was making what you call alt. porn when you were in Jr. High, not to mention a man i consider to be a friend.

Maybe it was the stuff with Kei, the fact that you once said you didnt like Brooklyn because she only came to you when she wanted money, but then you only call Kei when you want someone to promote you which she did, above and beyond, until she realized that was the ONLY reason you ever called again. But, thats her grievence... and while i share it it doesnt center my own.

You see to me, its a matter of being really what you claim in your image. Mind you its not just you, its a disease that has plauged the goth scene and the punk scene for years and just has become worse lately. the fashion goth, punk, whatever. The fact that its become a fashionable trend now with bands like My Chemical Romance, Good Charlotte and countless bands i cant name cause, well i dont listen to em. The trendy psudeo-subculture for those who pay attention to fashion magazines and Rolling Stone (or any other bullshit like that). Maybe it shouldn't be an issue to me, but well it is. The whole Emo thing, i remember when it first started back in high school. Emo kids were the kids that the Goth kids chased out as poseurs, the punk kids beat up, and essentially were the trendy fashion victims that were a watered down pop version . The Emo thing still continues and now enjoys its rightful place with the rest of the diseases of music right up on MTV. Unfortunately the Hot Topic trend has started trying to pass itself off as authentic. And to be honest thats where i place your stuff Eon. Its fashion victim chic.

Your obsession with "Street Cred" is probably the part that made me finally come to feel this way. I heard this phrase spouted so many times from you it made me sick. "I wont shoot in the valley cause shooting in L.A. gives me street cred", "I want to show the kids i have street cred". Street cred means SHIT to someone who is REAL. only poseurs worry about Street Cred. "i dont want fake boobs in my movie cause i want Street Cred" yet Blue Blood who have been doing Alt Porn since you were listening to boys II men, have no problem using fake tits in their photos... but thats a drama for another time. But, for someone SOOOOO punk, and with SOOOOOOO much street cred... you wont even show your face. you hide behind a drawing and wont let people take your picture. You say publically it's because you want a mystery, but the reality is you are afraid of people finding out its you who is Eon McKai. You are afraid it could hurt your mainstream work, afraid it could hurt your mainstream relationships. Thats cool, but it sure as hell ain't punk, and it sure as hell destroys any credibilty street or otherwise. Everyone knows who i am, i am not afraid to show my face to the world. Cause i stand behind my convictions, i stand behind what i do. I stand behind who i am. My mother knows what i do. Everyone in my life knows what i do, i dont feel a need to hide. But, you do. Would i really tell anyone what your real name is publicly, no. I respect your desire for anonymity.

I will admit though, your a reasonable facsimle. but your still the Hot Topic Punk version, and thats cool, but its not real and shouldnt be presented that way.

I think the best quote to sum up the whole thing comes from your namesake Ian McKaye “The whole punk-porn thing is really just about fashion. If I put on a hat, chaps, and spurs and made a cowboy-porn movie, it wouldn’t make me a real cowboy.”

Maybe im wrong in my presumptions, i based my opinion on expirence. but hey, you never know, im the first to admit i can be wrong about people. but right now this is my opinion. go have fun with Louis the XIV, ill be busy in the underground. Maybe when my movie is ready next spring we can compare and contrast, eh? Mines gonna take some time, i dont have a big corprate company sponsoring me.

-Rob K.