Wow. Just fucking wow. You used the term closet? How fitting. Higher on a totem? Uh, you got fucked in the ass and pissed on by random women found at the bus stop. You used to "get me work?" I don't thin so, Lucy. And what "chance" are you talking about?
Dude, get real. We were not and are not peers. You are a drug addict and piss poor, with no life and no future. You can lash out in hindsight and cling to the handfull of scenes you were lucky enough to do all you want, but the truth remains. You are delusional. You didn't "walk away from a dying industry", you failed out of porn! The girl has left the set, why are you still tugging at your junk and trying to get it up???