You do have a gift for the obvious: calling a geek a beta-male. Good, glad to see 6 years of community college paid off for ya.

ARE you a girl? Looks like some half state transsexual creature to me. You position yourself like a caricature in a bad 70's movie. AND, you are angry at yourself for failing in whitey's world. We all live with pain, but most of us don't wear it on our sleeves.

I am with you, Monica baby-- I am going to get some warm ovaltine and go to bed counting in hexadecimal.