From her Myspace Blog:

OK SO IM JUST NEEDING TO VENT AND GET SHIT OFF MY MIND, IF YOU READ THIS YOUR GREAT IN MY EYES CAUSE YOU CARE AND YOU TAKE THE TIME TO FIND OUT ABOUT ME. IVE BEEN THRU ALOT IN MY LIFE IVE DONE SOME STUPID SHIT, IVE DONE SOME GOOD THINGS TOO, BACK WHEN I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT WITH MY DAUGHTER (BORN MARCH 1ST 2002 JAIDEN MCKENZIE) I WAS SCARED AND YOUNG BUT I WENT THROUGH WITH MY RESPONSABILITY'S AND GREW UP AND HAD A BEAUTIFUL GIRL THAT MADE ME SEE A DIFFERENT SIDE A LIFE, AS TIME WENT BY I TURNED 21 ABLE TO DRINK WOO HOO BIG DEAL BUT I STARTED GOING OUT ALOT AND FINDING OUT WHAT I DIDNT DO WHEN I WAS ABLE DONT GET ME WRONGE I WOULDNT CHANGE THE FACT THAT I HAD HER AT ALL BEST THING TO HAPPEN TO ME EVER. WELL EVERYTHING CHANGED APRIL 9TH OF 2004 I DECIDED TO GO HANG AT THE RIVER WITH SOME FRIENDS WE HAD A BLAST AND MEMERYS WERE MADE, UNFORTANTLY TRAGIC HAPPEN AND HALF WENT IN ONE CAR HOME HALF WENT WITH ME, I WAS BEHIND MY FRIEND TRYING TO KEEP UP BUT HE WAS DRIVING INSANE AND WENT 85 AROUND A CORNER TRIED TO PASS SOMEONE AND WENT HEAD ON INTO A TRUCK NEEDLESS TO SAY IT WAS ONE OF WASHINGTONS BIGGEST TRAGEDY'S, I REMEMBER RUNNING TO THE CAR AND SEEING EVERYTHING THAT DOESNT NEED TO BE SAID, THE WORST PART WAS HOLDING ONE TRUE FRIED HIEDI MUNSON IN MY ARMS AS SHE DIED, THAT NIGHT EVERYTHING WENT DOWNHILL, I WASTED MY LIFE AND DIDNT TAKE RELIZE WHO WAS SUFFERING MORE THAN ME, MY BABY GIRL JAIDEN, I STARTED TO GO INTO A DEPRESSION MODE AND FINALLY IT GOT TO WHERE MY DAUGHTER WENT WITH MY DAD WICH MADE ME MORE UNHAPPY THAN ANYTHING IN MY LIFE, I BEGAN TO NOT BE THE PERSON I NEEDED TO BE, I STARTED TO GET MY LIFE TOGETHER AND HAD IT GOING, UNTIL I HAD A OFFER IN VEGAS FOR MODELING, WHICH ENDED UP IN MOVING TO LA TO DO PORN, THE MONEY WAS GOOD UNTIL I SAW ONE OF MY VIDEO'S AND BUSTED IN TERMS OF DISGUSTMENT, I WAS ASHAMED AND FELT WRONGE, THATS JUST ME, SOME OF THE PEOPLE R GREAT WITH IT ITS JUST NOT ME, I HAVE RECENTLY LEFT THE BUSINESS AND AM LIVING IN REDONDO BEACH, ITS HARD FITTING BACK INTO NORMAL LIFE, BUT IM GETTING THERE......OK IM DONE LOL FEEL BETTER NOW EVEN THO I SKIPPED THRU SHIT, WELL THANKS FOR LISTENING IN A WAY. HOPE EVRYONE TAKES LIFE FOR WHAT ITS WORTH..