That has cheered me up. She must be feeling well today.

i guess i just dont get it. why do these chicks get involved in porn? I mean whattaya do when your 30 and every company has chewed you up and spat you out and you have a bag for a belly?. How does Bukkake look on a resume? I cant help but wonder why porn? Whats in it for you long term? Also, what kind of medical benefits do you get when you are a freelance whore?

Sex and money,and plenty of fun.

That's why so many people get into this business in the first place.

It's all about the MONEY!

Well... Krell... I might have an answer to that. Some women are in porn because they're too lazy to make money another way. I guess perhaps a way that is more respected...

Some women do happen to enjoy fucking on camera whether their favorite fetish is tamer than others or degrading to more of the viewers eyes.

Even some to work a little at a time to have extra money for clothes, catch up on bills, buy drugs, give money to others simply for a money making basis only. Who knows...

Some women do have a what you may call a "real job" or "career" and feature in pornography whenever they can on a part-time basis.

There are all kinds of "whores" in this world today and not one exactly a like. But of course that's a given and I shouldn't be here to make it more obvious than it is.

I do know why I do it and that's all that really matters. What your opinion or assumptions are of me or anyone else is another story but I do know it would never change reality on how life is actually lived by each person.

Hey Gen, thanks so much for the reply. I guess I sounded harsh in my previous post and I really didnt mean it to sound that way. Im just trying to figure this out if you know what I mean. You've answered my question intelligently and diplomatically. There are certain performers I see in porn where I can see that porn is the only avenue. There are others, like yourself, that leave me wondering what, why and how you wound up doing this to begin with. Im sorry if that comes across as a put-down because I believe you truely enjoy what you do. I am a banker and this would be analogous to someone saying "how did you wind up in banking?". I am a fan of yours and I find you beautiful, well-spoken and educated. In light of your recently disclosed health issues, I couldnt help but hope for the best for you and I guess it just got me thinking thats all. Thanks and good night.

Thanks Krell... I'll make this short and sweet... the first shoot that I did that was actually for something productive was for a photographer by the name of Brian Bradley.

For sure at the time of meeting him for the first time, I didn't know who this guy was. Eager to take my clothes off for someone and pose for pictures. At the time I had never done this before.

Aside of being nervous, the adrenaline became a fetish. The funny thing is that my impressions were to show up for a photo shoot and just get a copy of what he took of me. Instead I got a 300$ check. Things were yet left at that and I still carried on doing TFP shoots and free modeling.
For a year. Call it either stupidity or plain oblivious. I don't know.

Brian later on contacted me and said, "what the hell are you doing? These people are suppose to pay you." Well that sure ended up more of a longer conversation than I made it to be but he inched me out there, I enjoyed the adrenaline and different lifestyle and relationship with a camera that I never had then all hell broke loose from there.

So a few years later getting to know what the industry is all about on the inside, sure perhaps being part of the industry smut, it can be a put-down in some ways but it would also be a put-down to slave a boss full-time being told what to do and only wondering whats going through that morons mind. Cuz clearly I've from experience realized you can't really talk to a boss and ask what's going through that noggin of his. You'd get fired.

Life today is really all about whoring yourself out somehow. I whore myself out to the adult world, I whore myself out to my family in need, I whore myself out to a company I run, I whore myself to those who use me or take advantage of me on a normal life-like basis, I whore myself out to the daily struggles and worries. We in mind are our worst enemy at times. So if anyone really wanted to get technical... we're all so-called "whores"

I'll do say one thing... the other day I sent in a application to the Northridge Hospital to see my possible options for the future in biochem. and I did question myself multiple times if I really wanted to whore myself out to a team that's so caught up in following the leader to get the job done. Is it worth to whore myself out for ample bucks an hour in a laboratory with assholes who don't know the difference between their head and their ass all day long?

I mean was going to college really worth it? Sure for the pure fact of gaining a bit of organized and indepth knowledge but what are the other rewards that will help me survive? Well if you think about it, you spend at least 60grand on college for a piece of paper (in the working world) for at least four years and then you start all over again by being hired by the dumbest company ever having to gain all that hands on experience to get anywhere worth working for to make decent money and support what life is really all about today.

Without Money we would all be living like the apes struggling with countless diseases, agh, you get the picture.

My point is, I don't care what I do with my life when it comes to making money. The only thing I do care about is I'm enjoying myself. Why be miserable? There are so many people out there with regular day jobs, no matter what it really is, a lot of them are eager to go home, a lot of them dread to go back the next morning, stress out, get depressed and life goes downhill from there. I don't want that and not gonna have it. I rather die. Call me stubborn.

I'll end here cuz I've made this a lot longer than intended.

This is strictly for "Krell Vid User" anyone else who reads this and can't stand the lengthly content within, then deal with it.

I think it would be really cool to have bukkake on a resume!!! If I was a boss I wouldn't care what you had done or hadn't done but rather you as a person. I believe an intelligent person can know who a person is just by looking at them or spending a little bit of time with them
Anyway there will ALWAYS be work in adult entertainment - I think youi should be able to stick around and make a career in this industry. Ed Powers must be a millionaire?

im sure ed powers is a millionaire a few times over. man, i remember when his stuff came out i couldnt wait for the next one. this lasted until about volume 15 or so. now, at volume 1000 or whatever, his movies suck big time ass.

I wish I could be like Ed Powers and have sex with so many girls and earn money doing it. I'd be boring to watch though I'm not as talkative as him