Well here's my explanation:

At the time of doing anal scenes many of them were solely DPs because those were the only anal activities that I enjoyed other than fucking myself with a toy in the ass. The few straight anal scenes I did were too intense for me to wanna keep doing. It certainly wasn't worth the money no matter what the amount is especially when I'd pass out cold time and time again.

Also just because I had started to do anal thats all everyone ever wanted to hire me for and that literally pissed me off cuz I wanted it in the pussy more than anything. I enjoy my vaginal orgasms too much. Since I got pissed off everytime someone called me for anal, I pissed them off in return and said NO.

Not only that but from my past treatments of having cancer still to this day and may carry on my entire life do I deal with a bad digestive system leaving me with irregular bowel movements which put a damper on my ability to do anal scenes to begin with. Even when starving myself and taking imodium, it wasn't worth it to me to starve myself when being hypoglycemic and to have to prepare so much just to get fucked. Again not worth the money to me.

Since I have limited myself to only girl on girl anal and solo anal other than that screw it. And even if I did want to go back and do anal I doubt I could because a month ago I did a boy/boy/girl scene one of the guys being Talon. A very mechanical kind of guy when it comes to fucking, I was in a cow girl position with no means of being able to have slight control of the action he slams me on his cock over and over which was fine until he slammed me so hard it went straight up my ass. I grabbed myself together and jumped off almost throwing up on his head, bleeding like a mother fucker and needed to put some toilet paper in my asshole and made a trooper of myself to finish the scene in pain.

Since that scene I've tried to put a toy in and when I reach a certain point it truly hurts badly. It could be scar tissue who knows.

That's my what may seem a life long story of my asshole. I wish I could be a ass champ like some girls out there but everyone is different and everyones sensitivity level is different too. Yea it'd be great if we could all take it up the ass. But I'd be more happy with this industry if poeple who just do what they enjoy and not suffer their ways through shit they hate to make money. And I'm certainly not going to make myself part of that statistic.

As I do appreciate everyones opinions, wants, needs, requests regarding this business especially if I'm involved in the topic. Fans mean the world to me but a true fan would respect my wishes and rather not see me in a scene feeling like crap. But most importantly, is me and what I want to do. Even if it's loss of income big deal.

I hope this makes any degree of sense. Thanks for understanding.

XOXO