I'm exhausted and elated and deeply disturbed. I cannot stop masturbating to this horrible pornography in which these young women are treated like ragdolls. I'm incredibly aroused by it, and extremely upset at the same time. It's just not right, but I cannot stop playing with myself. It's just all so exciting and I feel like I'm falling into a hole. I feel Like I am the hole, just like Timothy Hutton. Part of me is drooling and cannot wait to see the next atrocity, another part wants to rescue these lovely young women- go on a shooting rampage in the valley perhaps, murdering the scuzzy producers of this material and collecting my beautiful, weeping, rescued charges in a stolen school bus. When the bus is full I'd maybe move to Montana and start a cult with them, aligning ourselves with militiagroups or something. That's just stupid, but I think my point is clear. Videocameras are bad. Cameras are bad. Having your picture taken destroys your soul. Especially if you're getting throatfucked at the time. If you see it, it destroys your soul too. So, please stop it, with the pornography. It is killing me. Don't treat these women like this anymore. I don't care if they're lining up around the block. It's wonderful, but it must be stopped.