You need to listen to what I have to say instead of reading between the lines! I'm surprised you were an english teacher... you can't even listen to what I'm saying. Better yet, UNDERSTAND! How idiotic is that? All you do is run along with your little assumptions and stories your mind puts together.

First off, I never cared to listen to this mystery girl of yours. I'm not interested in your little games you've got going on with your wife. That's your business not mine and keep it that way. I don't care that she left you, I don't care that you miss her or feel sorry for her, whatever. Drop it.

Secondly... I don't want to meet you because it'd do nothing for myself nor yourself. Move on with your life of praising your worth elsewhere, go do something else to make your wife happy instead of wasting your time here. It is defnitely not obvious that anyone wants you to stay at this message board. They're sick of your nonsense talk that doesn't make any sense and they're sick of your pity.

Taking hours of my day to meet a stranger as yourself that talks like a psycho path, seriously believing that a stranger like myself is in love with you? GET REAL! Wake up! Stop dreaming! Step into reality and live the real life for a change. Get over it!

I have no feelings for you over the pathetic words that you write on this message board. Your words are redundant and worthless to me because you never get it through your thick skull of the things I say directly to you. You can write out the english language but you certainly can not understand a bit of it. It's a shame. Pay attention more if that means anything to you.

Call me a chicken shit all you want but I rather spend my free time with my family that I don't see often when they're not busy with life. I have my animals to take care of, I do volunteer work at the animal adoption station in Canoga Park, I work like a normal person does, I do porno, I talk to kind people who have respect to maintain a decent conversation without havok like yourself with fans through email. I try to have free time to myself and do the things I like with myself and my boyfriend. I'm happy with that. I don't need to meet you. No desire. For the milliionth time, get that.

You're really strange for even bringing the word "love" onto this site in association with me to begin with. What are you thinking? No wonder why the true meaning of love is lost. Because people like you use it carelessly. Think about it for a change. And not just five fucking minutes.

Third... I'm not arguing, I'm trying to successfully get you to understand what I'm saying. Comprehension shouldn't be the most difficult task for a living human being. Its frustrating at the most part and that's all it is. I'm not a failure so I try. Call it a hobbie. Nothing more!

Fourth thing on my mind.... you must not compare a person you know to someone you don't know just by similar chosen words spoken. That's wrong and disrespectful. But then again where was the respect to begin with right? Oh well... on any note, dont compare me to some other person. It's fine to hear "oh you remind me of,.... blah blah" but anything deeper than that is rediculous. You think I really want to listen to your misfortunes over and over again? Once is enough. I think I got the point. I'm not as dumb as you think I am.

And to clarify a topic you brought up before... just because a person doesn't go to college whether they're in the business or not, doensn't mean they're dumb, don't know anything, ignorant or haven't expanded their mind at all. Everyday life experiences are consistently expanding our minds. Even people in the porn world with a college education, me being part of that pool are not dumb. There are people who never even finished high school who are exceptional conversation partners that could challenge you to a wonderful conversation anyday. So stop praising yourself with all your success and putting everyone else down nonchallantly just because people didnt follow your same foot steps.

Oh and one other thing... I checked to see who was online in hopes TonyMalice was on so I could ask him a few questions. Having to avoid picking up the phone to call him. Don't get all your hopes up. You said you were leaving and I thought you were a man of his words. Obviously not.

I can't believe you would even have the nerve to say this

"I still wouldn't touch you without a full panel test, won't pay you for sex, and aren't particularly interested in saving you. You're too far gone for help, I think. "

Why? because I wouldn't have sex with anyone outside the industry anyways except for my other half who accepts all that I do prior to even being my boyfriend. Also, you have no right to even think about the possibilities of having sex with me wether it'd be something you'd do or not. Just get it in your head already, I'm not considerable to begin with.So stop bringing it up. You always talk about sex, is this the only thing that means something to you? Is that what life is all about to you? Besides all this money you claim you to have and do nothing with other than buy BMWs? The most driven car where people get in accidents running red lights because they don't know how to talk on the phone and drive at the sametime LOL. That's the besides the point, I just had to throw that in.

You said it yourself that you're not particularily interested in "saving" me, so leave. You have no other reason to write messages to me. So go! STick to your word and GO! It can't be that hard. Or are my WRONG intriguing words really digging into your skin? Perhaps I'm just humoring... glad to be of service. But I highly doubt that, it's just the fact that someone is actually talking to you. You feel worthy don't you. Geez... go find yourself for a change.

Russian Roulette, bullet in the chamber, call it what you will. You're better off dropping this altogether. All in all there is no relationship here other than simple talk on a xxx message board. Plain and simple. I can understand that, but can you? I'd be surprised, really.

No emails, no meeting, no more talking to me, no more babbling about this mystery porn whore, no more STD worry talk from you because you obviously don't car ENOUGH to make a difference and help, so you have no right to talk. Except for the fact that you being here is supporting everything I say when people agree with me.

Boy and I never thought logic would ever get this difficult. So run along and correct your english at other message boards. Join a millionaire's club where people really care about your money and bmw's. Go to some swinger party or something to fulfill a void you have with your wife and multiple partners. And i'm sure you can find another attractive chick who's naive enough to let someone like yourself try to mold her living. Maybe you'll feel better that way.

I wouldn't want to make you any more angry than you are, already. Have a good one. Now leave for crying outloud.