Wish it was a joke. I do not know if you guys understand what drugs can and will do to a person. Kidnapped... was about getting rent payment to office. An in home mail order took off for me some time ago, which brought in substantial amounts of cash, in turn a dangerous amount of drugs. This is the only place I feel safe posting. Talking about it helps. Also I relay messages to and from a long time friend far away who is in the same position as me. The purpose of this post was to tell someone my family is coming to take me home. I will be forced to stop completely and regain life I wasted for many years. The motivation for all this being the "holidays". Anyway. most people here are sympathetic. Except for some including the one guy who pm'd urging me to take more "dope." I sincerely thank you.