Even porn chicks don't like guys who think with their dick. That's all you got right now.
A poor sense of love, its just crappy lust. From that perspective your stupid and its a foolish decesion.
Think of any "actress" and their fans, that hookup aint happening on any level. You've only seen Taylor Rain with her ass up and wide open, but don't know what conversation comes out of her mouth, if it would make any sense.
She walks upright and needs feeding. Married and divorced to Faynor so she makes brutal mistakes. People joke she's a nose candy cutie and 80% is probably right. Its porn what's she doing and probably not normal doing scenes. She's jacked up on drugs to get through it and now an addict, or was always an addict its why she entered porn in the first place to afford it.
If that's what you want to fuck its one thing, a fan that loves her is stupid.
Your free to try and win her favor by throwing cash and gifts her way to gain attention, she may take it all and laugh while your more broke.
Take a walk on the nearest college campus and see some coeds, their fresh and hopeful a good man will bother them. Your wanting to walk in the gutter willingly and that's nutty. Those coeds could probably see it on your face and smell it from a distance.
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