i'd interpret it as a manifestation of guilt over dumping fayner, sending a young jewish olympic-hopeful into a decade-long tailspin of experimenting with drugs and living a lie as a straight man.
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"She has no waist, no arse...an interesting face...but all we are really worshipping is two bags of silicone"

Martin Amis "honoring" katie price with a character bearing some of her traits