Gen thinks me a liar.

Well, I'll tell you what, I'm able to PROVE every word I write, and yeah, I can back up all my bragging.

My wife and I have had RELATIONSHIPS with women, not fly by night fucks. In the past six months, however, we have had little time for girls, and only had three girlfriends.

At the moment, we aren't seeing anyone.

I am currently working on my business, which requires me to spend hours and hours on the computer. I've had to learn a gazzilion programs to make this business work properly, and to get it online.

Our standing rule is that we do not pay for sex. We aren't interested in having someone fake it for money. Since you're in this sordid world of porn, your brain has changed, Gen.

Once a girl gets paid for having sex, which can start as early as when Daddy, Uncle, Grandfather, or Family Friend begins paying a girl...her entire view of the world changes.

Some girls can't have sex, after traumatizing early experiences such as those, which are MORE common than not, without getting paid.

This is probably why you think I'd have to pay for sex.

Girls who are raised with proper parenting are taught that sex is something you do with people you care about. For girls like these, such as my wife, getting paid for having sex simply does not compute.

Since you raised this topic, Gen, it's only fair that I give my side of it, even if it hurts you.

The only girls I have ever had accuse me of paying for sex...

...are girls that get paid for having sex.

Due to your upbringing, and your chosen path, you simply can't understand why people might not do as you do. I'd love to help you get past this line of thinking, but my therapy doesn't come cheap. It requires TRUST.

Asking a girl in porn for their TRUST is the toughest thing you can ask for.

The breaking of TRUST, after all, is the reason they went into porn in the first place.

You may find this hard to believe, but I have never, not even once, broken TRUST with my wife. I don't break the TRUST of my friends, either.

Your anger at me, Gen, tells me you'd like to know me better.

I'm not 'typical', and therefore, you feel the need to conquer me. You'd like to make me into all the other men you've known, who are and were mainly composed of shit...

...but I just won't fit the mold.

I won't buy your movies, look at your pics, pay you for sex, or take you shopping.

I also don't cheat on my wife.

What I will do for you, Gen, is something no one has ever done for you...something you wouldn't be able to understand, or handle.

I will be your friend.

And, in the process of being your friend, I will kick your ass and point you to a better way of life...a life that doesn't end at age 28, where you don't have to start over, where you hang out with people who say things like, 'you'll just have to accept you're gonna get herpes'.

On our first meeting, I'd listen to you speak, intently, and remember every word. I'd ask you questions as you talk about your day, and let you figure out your problems simply by having someone listen to you. We'd go for a walk along the oceanfront, talk some more, and get a bite to eat.

Eventually, you'll see that this heart of mine, which you think so black and angry, really isn't that way at all.

You soon see that my heart is full of unconditional love. Shit, the girl I care about, you may work with soon. For all I know, you may have already worked with her. She's already got 10 movies out, in three months, and I'm quite sure there's probably 100 more to come. But even after all this...

...I'd still welcome her back.

Sometimes the most honest, caring, genuine people come off as being tough. My mom comes off that way. But I can tell you from experience- my mom runs a tight, tight ship, and her kids have ALL been wildly successful at most everything they've done. However, if you were to speak to her personally, you'd get the idea that she's tough. Tough as nails. But, it simply isn't true.

You might find it hard to believe that girls might actually be attracted to me, and my wife, and want to have relationships with us.

Your porn-riddled brain just can't accept this.

There must be some sort of compensation paid to these ladies, right?

Why yes, there is.

What do they get out of it?

KNOWLEDGE, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, AND FRIENDSHIP.

Can you imagine that?

I know you can't.

However, if you hung out with my wife and I, even for a little while...you'd understand.

In fact, you'd probably dump your boy toy, and take a break from doing porn for a while.

However, since you're too chickenshit to actually meet me, you'll simply never know.

You'll just go on, making the same idiotic mistakes you are making now, like some dog chasing it's tail, until they tell you they can't use you anymore.

I could show you a better way, a better life, and a happier approach to relationships...but you won't let me in.

Too bad for you, Gen. Too bad for you.

When the gun is cocked, and at your head, and you're about to pull the trigger...I'd like you to call me. I'll turn your head around, and show you how truly wonderful life can be.

It's a shame it will probably have to come to that, but that's where it will go.

I hear your pain, through your angry, distrustful words...

...and I'm here for you, Gen.

But like I said, my therapy don't come cheap.

My therapy requires TRUST.

For you, and the girl I care about, TRUST is the toughest thing to give.

You give me your TRUST, and I give you my KNOWLEDGE.

That's the deal.

It's the same deal I've offered all the girls we've been with.

The only one who went astray is the one I'm here on this board for. And one day, I hope she'll come to her senses...and come back.

Do you understand why I don't have to pay for sex yet, Gen?

It's because HEALTHY RELATIONSHIPS don't require FINANCIAL COMPENSATION.

I could do wonders for you, Gen, if you'd only open your heart.

Don't even attempt to give me some crap about how you aren't attracted to me. I know you are. In fact, on some level, you're probably falling in love with me.

All that matters now is that you do what you know you want to do...and take a chance.

All I require...is your TRUST.

The Outsider