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truth is behinds the scenes? In that case watch every god damn behind the scenes footage in all my movies. I recommend watching all the behind the scenes for Toss My Salads and Chunky Series, even But'er Face is a good one. That'll give you a taste what I'm really like when not replacing myself for a character in a movie, yet even then all my reactions to sexual gratification is genuine.

perhaps we have girls in this industry who are drug users, but what industry in this world doesn't have its own fair share as well? same goes with alcohol abuse.

how many people out there do you know likes their 9-5 job? I bet you there's more who hate their job than like their job. What makes you think its right for them to work like that if they're not happy? I mean we are human and strive to live life by doing things that bring us pleasure right?

And I'll end it with letting you all know that I may not shoot a lot nor a steady basis like most of the girls but I will say that everything I have done has been performed with the uttmost enthusiasm and desire with nothing more. If it this were true agony for me that I could not endure then screw it, i'll go else where. The only thing that would keep me from wanting to be in this business lately are coming across mainly women who need to get drunk or do something in order to get through their scene. But then again I wouldn't want to work at a office that bitches about working all day either.

I certainly don't like working at Cedar Sinai's Laboratory with majority of employees with 10-15 years of experience on top of me, bitching and sometimes asking me questions on how to do something because they're fucking lazy and miserable. That makes me miserable.

You tell me what I'm most happily doing. And then ask yourself what you'd be most happy doing and go the fuck out there and do it for goodness sakes. Quit the bitchen.

(pain meds wore off so I'm in a very confrontational mood right now, deal with it)

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