No one has to keep their kids from me. I HATE kids. People who know about my porn collection force their kids upon me just to try to have me interact with kids. Until they can have an adult conversation, I think they belong in the womb.

Most parents are aware that the people who hurt kids devise ways of being around them, so my full on retreat rightfully turns off any danger warnings.


I'm pretty asexual now, so, like you, it is often that is assumed as likely gay. Also, I will not date. My dating career is over. I HATE dating. My last date of even the remotest kind was in 2004, and that really wasn't a date. The one before that, which was a date, was in 1997. Two possible dates in 17 years. People will think you gay.

I am messed up with bipolar. It impacts relationships badly. While one day I can be super attentive and engaging, you might not hear from me for a month or two or six and then, like I do here, I show up as if nothing is odd about that.

Fiend would very likely term me a wimp. Not only couldn't I hit a female, I HATE even making one I care about remotely sad. My last real relationship that mattered to me ended in 1981 as a disaster. So, long ago I settled into enjoying watching. I liked porn before that. Now it became my entire outlet.

I'd have occasion at times to drift from being a watcher to participant, but these were fleeting affairs which either I didn't want to last or knew wouldn't even if I wanted it.

My brother, who in my opinion is the far more attractive man both "then" [as young men, when I wasn't obese] and now, and has a mountain of conquest still feels I got the two hottest chicks who both turned him down first. And, one was when I was a real fattie.

So, unlike me, it bothers him when my relatives take my lack of participation in the dating game as possible gayness. He decided to let them in on my porn addiction, if I may call it that, and my predilection for the barely legal genre.

I'd be better thought of in my extended family as "gay" than the pedophile they've cast me for liking women from 18-25. I don't help myself when I point out that if I could get a 16 year old in NJ or PA to fuck me it would be legal ... as long as I didn't film it.