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Fayner if you are reading, care to delve a little deeper into your thoughts or what brought on this rant of truth?



hey Monkey, how ya been? Good, I hope. Frankly, I'm not to sure what brought about my sudden anger, could be my self-pity over not doing what I should be doing 'cause I'm terrified of what I could become with some focus and enthusiasm. Im not saying Im better than porn, cause Im not, but whether everyone thinks Im just some lame Hunter Thompson copycat or not, I somethimes do think I have a shred of talent which could be used elsewhere but my comfort level working in porn is so damaging to my growth as a writer, as a human.

And I just blame it all on this town, thats all. Dreams are killed by the minute. Its a total shame.

I could have gone a bit overboard, but thats the way I am. And i feel bad for people who possess an amazing talent and its lost cause its not how good you are here, its who you know and who you blow. And that bothers me. A lot.

does that explain anything at all?

and to Zenman, when did I say "This town will really break you if you let it." which you call a cliche? I cant find it!