He has been clean for over a month, and sometimes when you get a look at reality sober things don't look so good. He has always maintained that he has too much journalist integrity to ever mention the monkey on lukeford and has cursed other sites out for doing it in the past, at least thats the front he puts up. He does however make not so subtle hints about the monkey that the people of the board have picked up. Deep down i feel for him, i mean he needs drugs to have any kind of happiness in his life but in the long run it will kill him, or he can live a longer more miserable life sober. Things kinda went down hill after our relationship dissolved and i think the damage that it caused destroyed any chance of us even being friends let alone a couple again. I wish him the best regardless and i will always love him, you can't just switch that off. I just hope he finds whatever it is he is looking for.