Had it my whole teenage/adult life. Bottling shit up and such. It fluctuates. Bad to worse with some small patches of good. I've never really had a pill that didn't kill emotional response and make me feel dead inside, so I usually constantly distract myseld in an attempt to run from my problems instead of medicating. Therapists all tell you the same shit. Exercise and sunlight and such. I don't wear hats too often, but don't rip the shoes man, they're nifty.