The Daily Beast
by Aurora Snow

I was at the doctor’'s office lying flat on my back with cold jelly on my slight bump of a tummy, hearing a second heartbeat emanate from within me. The sonogram made it real. When I was told it was a boy, my whole life flashed before my eyes. I felt accountable for the choices I’ve made. I have to explain myself to my son one day. Here’s what I’d say:



My Son,

As I write this, you haven’t yet entered the world, not due to be born until mid-December. By the time you read this you will be old enough to browse the Internet, old enough to like girls, and old enough to know the name “Aurora Snow.” I’ve dreaded this day for many years now and my hope is that you find this article before accidentally stumbling upon any pictures or videos that show your mom in a way she never intended for you to see. Let me explain.


Your mom grew up very, very poor. In early 2000, I was going to school at UC Irvine, and although I was a high school honor roll student, scored high on tests, and spent week after week filling out applications, I was still drowning in student loans. Frustrated and feeling my chance at a higher education slipping away, I answered an ad in the Orange County Register newspaper.

The large bold print caught my eye: Girls Nude Modeling—earn $2,000 per day.

I had no shame and needed the money. I knew for certain that I never wanted a family of my own. It was an age before everyone and everything was online, and I truly felt I could hide it from my mom, dad, and brothers. What did I have to lose? I planned to be in it for one year, pay back my student debt, and walk away without ever looking back. It didn't quite work out that way.

The attention made me feel good. The money was incredible. But even with the attention, I never felt pretty. I thought that at any minute they would realize they had made a mistake and ask me to go home and bring the pretty girl onto set. They never did. And that nude modeling job soon led to someone asking me to have sex on camera for money. Even more money. I said yes, and that choice led me down the very eventful and colorful path of adult filmmaking.

For reasons beyond my understanding, they kept asking me to do movies. Soon I was on box covers, posters, and even some mainstream TV shows. Your great grandma was the first to discover your mom’s secret profession (she saw me on a VHS tape at her friend's house), and she quickly informed your grandma and uncles. While they were disappointed with my choices, they never stopped loving me and stuck by me regardless.

Your grandma thought I should do something with my mind and not my body. She worried a lot about me and always hoped I'd find my way out. Though I never spoke about it directly with your uncles, it's always been the elephant in the room. Your grandpa was living in another state, and found out what I was doing when he saw me on the Howard Stern TV show. In retrospect, I was quite thankful I'd been one of the few girls on Stern's show to keep her clothes on. I maintained a sense of modesty when I wasn't on set.

By this point in your life, I hope I’ve taught you the importance of honesty, and so I’m going to be honest with you. I’ve done just about everything imaginable in my adult career and if you dig deep enough you will find things you might think are pretty awful. I can honestly say that I approached adult filmmaking as a job, and, like any job I’ve ever had, I felt it important to do my best. Sometimes doing my job well meant doing pretty gross things. Hopefully you never see that stuff.

Something truly life-altering happened on February 20, 2009. Your Uncle Keith was in a bad motorcycle accident and broke his neck, and his two young sons came into my care. I had no idea what to do with kids, but I was forced to learn as I took care of your cousins for a couple of years while Uncle Keith recovered. During that time, something changed. I felt something powerful happen inside of me as one of my nephews put his arms around me, trusting me with his life and giving me his unconditional love. Suddenly I realized, “Oh crap, I want a family of my own.”

I never believed in love and was scared to death of anything or anyone that could tie me down. I was a free spirit who could pick up and go at a moment's notice, but those feelings faded when I realized what I was missing.

My priorities shifted. I was no longer the girl willing to do anything, instead I became a woman with a goal. I wanted a family, but first I had to find someone to create that family with. Not an easy task either. A dear friend of mine introduced me to a nice Midwestern farm boy who also happened to be in the entertainment field, creating TV shows. He was warm, charming, and very family-oriented.

Even though I wanted out, it’s hard to change after committing a decade of your life to a career, regardless of what that career is. Your Dad recognized the cycle I was caught in and said, “Just push the eject button.” It was advice I was finally ready to hear. For the first time I had both the motivation and courage to leave the business.

Son, I hope this article helps you understand and prevents you from clicking on my XXX video links. The choices we make can change our path forever in a way we might not understand at the time. I made choices that took me down a path that many people frown upon. Despite what I thought then, these are choices I am now explaining to my own child. It all comes down to choices. If I'd known I'd one day change my mind and want a family of my own, I would have made completely different choices. I can't say they would have been better, because every choice I've made has led me to this point and I wouldn't take that back. When you're 18 it's so easy to see the future and know exactly what you do and don't want, but just 10 years later hindsight sneaks up.

So remember when you’re making big choices in life, think far into the future and ask yourself, “can I live with that?” My answer is in this letter, which I hope speaks for itself.
Love,

Mom

tl;dr version -
son, i hope you inherit your dads decision making skills.
love,

Whore

In 15 years nobody will care about her. Thousands of girls will have come and gone in the business that can deep throat and gape just as good as her. She will be irrelevant. We will be jerking off to 3d hd porn or real girls from a 3d printer or some shit. She will be irrelevant.

Thanks for the cliff notes Lou. I only made it to "The attention made me feel good..."

For when Jr Googles and finds this thread:

http://auroraduck.ytmnd.com/

Wait 'til Skynet gets a bead on that article. They'll be knocking at her door in 2007 and whacking the mother of the resistance's leader.

Im sure this response has something to do with something.

This letter is bullshit! Who does stupid stuff like that, just tell the damn kid what you did for a living and let it go. I hate these fakes that do porn and then do the "ass wipe, I was confused"....BS!!

Aurora you where a good whore, so deal with it....and age like the plain janes you now live around and soon look like in Missouri!!

Please don't make me spell it out.

I'm saying in 15 years when her son is of age, he will not find out his mom was a whore, because nobody will remember who she is. Much more/better whores will have come a long, and she will be forgotten.

i'd shorten that to 12 or 13 years based on what phones have done to the level of access the youth of america now enjoy. and i'm sure at least a few of us will be operating at bdm level by then and bumping "vintage" vids of gauge and aurora simply because that is some tight shit, son.

She left out the part about her gaping butt. I declare this letter incomplete and inaccurate.

Typical whore gibberish. "I want", "I need", I, I, I. He'll know his mom is a piece of shit long before he stumbles on her Service Animals scene with Gauge.

So still seeking attention and easy money. Not a nice boy who owns a Subway Franchise or works in an office. Or maybe he is one of those "show runners" who does most of his work sitting in a coffee shop with free WiFi. Will she do some preggo videos to support the boy with great potential if he can only catch the big break?

It would have been better if she had left it as an audio recording in quack.

^this lol

I'd give her five years. Porn is so disposable. Off the top of my head, the only porn stars I can name from the 90s are Jenna Jameson, Annabel Chong, Inari Vachs, Chloe, and Houston. Jameson, Chong, and Houston all enjoyed noteriety outside of porn. Vachs had a clever stage name.

This. I'll watch a Taylor Rain/Gauge/Aurora Snow vid in the future for old times sake, but kids born in the ots won't. I certainly wouldn't watch an 80's porno unless you put a gun to my head.

If ever land another woman, and she doesn't watch porn, I'm gonna start her off on 70's and 80's stuff, so the big hair and big bushes don't threaten her as a modern day barely legal's waxed anus in 1080p would.

I came after "very, very poor"!

Your great grandma was the first to discover your mom’s secret profession (she saw me on a VHS tape at her friend's house), and she quickly informed your grandma and uncles.

Your Uncle Keith was in a bad motorcycle accident and broke his neck, and his two young sons came into my care.

Son, I hope this article helps you understand and prevents you from clicking on my XXX video links.

So a few questions:
1 Why was Aurora's Grandma and her friend watching porn?
2 Why did "Uncle Keith" appoint Aurora executor of his affairs when he became incapacitated?
I agree wholeheartedly wouldn't bother clicking on your video links either. Aurora was always a second tier performer, her stuff just is not that good and she is no where near being hot. This is the only thing that makes sense in the whole letter.

I can definitely answer number one for you-

Because people fucking watch porn.

Number 2: Maybe because despite being a whore he trusts her judgement and intelligence.

Why is she not proud of her accomplishments and fame? Being a porn star should not be something to be ashamed of. It is just another profession in the entertainment industry. The taboo of sex as wrong in the US and some other countries leads to all this shame. Why?

She should be proud of what she did. I know there are a lot of evil people in the industry that exploit others for their own gain. But it is the same on Wall St. too and they screw us all!!

you misspelled jay ashley

Oh man... I don't know about that - her videos were hot: wholesome, slutty, and perverted.

I don't see it as being a big deal when jr finds out, it's when all his friends find out. She'd do well to marry military, I see a lot of moving and new schools in this kids future.

And like what if he turns out to excel at sports...those would be some pretty interesting interviews on ESPN.

Thanks mom....

Another thing about this Aurora Snow, I hate myself road tour is that this whore is still selling content on her website....how is that, if she hates what she did and now still does.

What a fraud and fake chick.

solid point.

http://www.aurorasnow.com/landing/

Don't be silly. Aurora gotta eat. Job interviews probably don't turn into sucessful outings when the interviewer immediately recognizes you and wonders if it hurts to sit on such a used and abused ass, instead of guaging if you appear hireable. First impressions and all that.

Makes perfect sense, she runs up a ton of student loans rather than working her way through school then rather than getting a job in the field she went to college for makes porn her career choice. Definitely shows good judgment and intelligence a good pick for a fiduciary.

Many girls do the first. I know several. Some do the second and they are the reason you're here so stfu.

And I guess a lot end up as as fiduciaries as well?

It's easy to find doucheries on here.

Well, she sort of got work in the field for which she went to college. I read somewhere that she was a drama/theater major. She spent years acting like she enjoyed swallowing gallons of mope jizz and getting dozens of cocks rammed up her ass.

Cue the prego titles. "Arrora Snow in make my fetus quaack!"

most college aged kids i know dont even know who taylor rain or ariana jollee are. i am assuming jr high and high school kids have no clue either. you guys are right by the time this little bastard becomes a teenager the only people who will remember her or watch her scenes for nostalgia will be over the age of 40. she should rip up \ delete this stupid letter.

- Interesting conversation -

I am curious what other women went through that had careers in hardcore pornography or nude modelling and then became mothers, like, Michelle Wild or American counterparts. What did their children think when they found out about their moms being in porn? Were the children ridiculed because of their mothers' past lives? (children will be ridiculed for any minor *flaw* - imagine your mom doing gangbangs for a living.)
Are there differences between the way Europeans and Americans perceive former sex workers? Gauge did an interview earlier this year testifying to her rough experience holding steady "civilian" jobs due to her past work. People are close-minded conservative assholes, hypocrites, and basically can't cope with a woman that used to provide sexual pleasure for money.

I like the point about people forgetting Aurora. It's true that newer pervs don't seem to know the older names from the porn game. Yet...

It's been 17 years since Jenna Jameson hit the porn scene. Most people still know who she is, and what she did for money in 1996. The internet is only making it harder for models and pornstars to escape into obscurity. There will always be a fresh crop of women coming into porn, but the hard drives & servers will always be chugging along, hosting content, and being a sore reminder for women that would rather the world just forget who they were, before they had children.

I don't see anything particularly wrong about the way she made money earlier in her life. She sucked/fucked dick, in various ways and arrangements/scenarios, and got paid. If anyone should be writing an apology letter to their unborn it should be some of these white-collar criminal fucks that hold this (USA) nation back from progressing and who act as a stubborn hurdle toward our species' general enlightenment.

If you are new to porn you don't "forget" the stars you are introduced to unless they are well....forgettable. I remember clearly the ones I first saw such as Linda McDowell, Seka, Vanessa Del Rio, Jessie St. James, Marilyn Chambers etc...... They were rebellious heroes in my mind at the time and have only become legend. I won't forget Jameson either but mainly because of hype and not for any particular deed or performance.

The kid will be lucky to be able to stay in her for 9 months. The way she gapes her ass and pussy the kid will probably just drop out any time now.

Most porn stars aren't really "stars". As long as new porn is being made, Aurora Snow's "legacy" will be buried under all the new content being generated.

What a pity she didn't write a similar letter to her family when she went into porn. Or do they not matter? What exactly is it her husband does?

Second guesses himself.

The guy just married the whore so he didn't do enough of that.

On a somewhat related note, I'd like to thank Satan for making this happen today...

"Now smile big with the whore, Honey Boom Boom".

hahah TUP , sorry ive not shouted you out earlier, but you are killing it of late.........................