You're barking up the wrong tree but you know that.
Same as I know I am. You'd rather writhe on your couch fantasizing about how you'd teach everyone a lesson than actually take action. You're a coward. You want to end it because you know your life is worthless but you lack the courage to do so. Just like you beg to be banned and boxed and persecuted here, along with your cohorts.
You are a failure in life and now, in death. Maybe we can toughen you up enough to "express" yourself properly.