didnt shake or even say hi to him.but according to him after walking back to his office after his first glance of me,late 40s orgy/dp star(former therapist) has more important people to see than me.to which i replied,"yeah her dancing card is pretty full."

i dont know how ill ever trust anyone again.she made herself out to be this respectable mature "lady",but shes anything but that.shes got some kind of fucking schizophrenia or something,because every other fucking time i saw her it was like she felt different towards me.sometimes its like shes all about me and eludes to the fact that im more than just another client(ie saying im one of the three men in her life),other times its shit like"im here for you every week you see me".

if shes out getting fucked by new guys every month or even quicker,why would she be jealous of me pounding off to porn?word is shes already been going to orgies.god forbid i jerk myself off thinking about other women.if i was as much a dick as she is a cunt id tell the governing board about her,but im above that.she played with my emotions like im some kind of fucking,i cant even think of the word for it.