Panic attacks are fun, aren't they? I used to get these strange pains in my left arm which I didn't realize were related to a couple of ruptured discs in my neck. I'd get myself all worked up thinking it had to be related to my heart and then it'd turn into a panic attack, which can resemble a heart attack. And the more I tried to convince myself that it wasn't a heart attack, the more I'd be able to convince myself that maybe, just maybe, it was.

"I'm diabetic, mostly sedentary, somewhat overweight, I drink like a fish, Oh GOD I'm about to fucking die!" Then there was the time my thyroid pill dosage got out of whack and I woke up in the middle of the night with a headache and a racing heart and convinced myself I was about to have a stroke. Good times.

Paranoid? Yup. Guilty as charged and have never denied it. When mods start threatening wholesale banning for saying naughty words, on an "uncensored" forum, sure it'll me lead to look on the grassy knoll. Guilty as charged.

No, i'm not playing the I don't know if I was banned thing. Thanx to you, actually. Secondhand admittedly, but for all the shit being thrown around, I do trust your word.

The problem is I never said I was sure about anything. I had a fairly short list of reasons. An overzealous mod was one of them. And I certainly wasn't going to ask any of the Star Chamber. In retrospect, I should've gone to Steve in the first place, like when I was having problems when he first assumed the throne. It reminds me of my ex when I first stasrted started having panic attacks. I had a million "causes". Everything from heart failure to a tumor to her poisoning me to demon possession. About 20 or so others. All she heard was the "her poisoning me" thing. Got to listen to that every day of our abortion, er, marriage. Hav, I'll just start calling you me "cunt ex".

Who am I representing? Seriously. PM me, if you need to.

For not having a say, I've had my say. And for being an insignificant poster who steals bandwidth (still like to know where that "donate" button is) I've gotten under hav's skin nicely. Go capitalism!

Dude, you are 100% contrarian. You just offended everyone without taking a side at all.

trust no one...learn everything. - loucypher

I was concerned about having mean spirited right wing bigots as mods

Apologies all around to anybody I may have offended. I still think you're wrong, but such is life. Things went farther than they should have and I'll accept my part in that.

It is just annoying to see the names up there when they don't participate on the site

the absolute LAST person on this board who can be trusted is YOU, <expletive deleted>

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I haven't seen this many weak chins since the rape of Nanjing.

You never saw a man with more power screw it up faster than hitler.

ever hear of tory lane? "channeling The Demon" tory lane, once verbally penetrated ryan knox so thoroughly he would never rise again.

Hey random person I don't give a shit about, you should post in A World Outside Of Porn, where your opinion may actualy become meaningful.

My apologies, I guess I was too forward with the Mr. Floppy Cock name. I sense the bile in your retort, and feel it is safe to assume these issues persist. I am not here to persecute people based on their disabilities. I have flaws myself, which I can be sensitive to at times. I'll change the moniker I refer to you as, and reflect on how my words may have affected you.

Rest well, Piss Boy.

This thread is great.

The four of you combined have been with fewer women than me. I don't mind the name calling if it helps to ease your jealousy.

The four of you combined have been with fewer women than me. I don't mind the name calling if it helps to ease your jealousy.

Women paid to be with you don't count.

How Grammar school boy's room can you get?

Of course they do you moron. What's wrong? Can't get a date chubby?

Whoever is posting as Ryan is blowing it. Knoxx could not write a sentence to save his life. I linked his recent posts to a few of the real Knoxx's friends and they all said the same thing. He is not capable of writing beyond an elementary school level.

I heard you couldn't get it up for scenes because you aint really in to chicks. Is that true or is Brandon talking smack again?

Knox should I bite off Panzer's former screen name and go with Limp Noodler?