Hahaha... it's funny to go back and read those. If there's any interest, here's an update explanation/feelings about each one:

11/2/03: I HOPE MIDNIGHT PROWL AND MEATHOLES DIE. They're a waste of time.

I don't hope Meatholes die, they're not a waste of time if you enjoy the intriguing ways of Kahn Tusion. If you don't think you can handle rough sexual involvements then you shouldn't do it, therefore it'd be a waste of time to yourself. Although, Midnight Prowl is an awesome concept I don't think I could ever do it.

11/4/03: anyone in their right mind who shows up to a Khan Tusion shoot for their website and doesn't feel threatened or out of place then I'd question it.

After getting to know Kahn Tusion and realizing there's more to him and Meatholes, that it's not necessary a monster there only an image created by others making him a monster for bringing out the realities that women can not handle emotionally. But if you seriously are pushed enough to wearing you do feel threatened then yes, I'd questoin your right mind.

11/5/03: But from the talent pool they've used so far it's obvious they're either substance abusers, don't have much self-esteem and need the money regardless...

Now I do have to agree with this statement still but only about 90%. It's obvious that the women who give in to doing meatholes are in some of those situations but also I'm not doubting they try finding ones they know they can break down. Since that's the whole point. ANd it usually takes an unbalanced person to not get through the scene without breaking down.

5/6/04: it seems as though Khan Tusion has a hard time distinguishing reality of life and acting out a character. Which makes me hesitate to even want to meet him myself.

Again after meeting Kahn Tusion and learning of his purpose. Meatholes is really only about reality of life and not acting out a character only thy true self being revealed. I think reality is most feared by a greater population.

8/5/04: I don't think Khan wants to shoot me LOL... cuz if I did, he'd be in danger of his credibility as who he really is.

Because I didn't measure up to what a true meathole is, it'd make sense as to why he wouldn't want to shoot me for another meathole scene. If so, it'd be the same as the one I just did. And we know we all don't like repeats. Therefore I think I may find my place if the offer is given. And thats to be Kahn Tusion's mini me. Hey! I'm small enough!

Oh! and... I may be corrupting Bianca with the sole cautions of both sides to every possible situation whether it be good or bad and she still is happily allowing herself to let me corrupt her. It's truly not intentional I tell ya! We just rub each other the right way... kinda like her Oklahoma accent gets me wanting to say "...do WHAT?!" and all the other cool phrases they use back home. hehehe

Love ya girly! XOXO