Yeah, I could see how having your mind filled with thoughts of black dick could be distracting. All the inner turmoil, struggle to keep anyone that isn't on the down low from figuring it out. It has driven plenty of closeted guys over the edge, into alcohol and drugs. I wish you luck man.
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Thinking of cracked-out and/or tweaking whores getting their throats and asses brutalized for the next hit makes me hard. --Rear Admiral