When did Brandon Irons turn into Sasha Grey?
But what specifically did your father do or fail to do that makes you seek out the approval of father figures? Did it weird you out to be bare-bottom spanked at 12 years old? Was his birds-and-bees talk a little too hands-on? Did he leave you as a small child in pursuit of a better life elsewhere with people he loved?
Or -- and brace yourself, please -- are all your attempts to be "Super" at something...ANYthing -- just a feeble attempt to hear, "Son, I'm proud of you"? Aha! That's it!