Tony...

Our problem, we guess, is that we give a shit.

Take a look at Scott Fayner's article on lukeford.com, titled "Disturbing, ain't it?"

His point of view on that particular girl in his article is very similar to ours with the one we are talking about.

This isn't the same industry that it was just a few years ago.

A few years ago, girls got paid to have sex on camera, and you could tell that many of them actually enjoyed it.

Tons of girls got together with a couple of guys in scenes, and people were SMILING, and truly ENJOYING having sex on camera.

Man do we miss that.

But now...

...everything is about PAIN.

I don't get off on pain. Neither does my wife.

I have talked privately with a number of girls in the industry.

These girls are now on pain-killers, and have had to go to the hospital after their shoots, in which the things they did made them bleed from both the vagina and the anus.

But- did they 'agree' to do the things they did on camera?

Yes, they did.

Are they self-proclaimed 'whores'?

Yes, they are.

However, one thing that is missing here in these girls lives is the notion of FUTURE.

When you are raised without a father, in a fucked up home, with a mom that ain't there, and moms' boyfriend, who uses you, at ages 11 to 15 as a blow-up fuck doll- you just don't give a shit.

In fact, mom may be behind pimping you out, since she secretly hates the fact that you are now, as a teenager, pretty than she is.

Thus, engaging in rough sex, that is, sex rough enough to send you to the hospital- is no big deal.

It's a suicide. It's a slow, extended suicide.

If the porn climate was not so rough, and we were still watching movies where threesomes were cool, that is, with two girls and a guy, I probably wouldn't be complaining.

But it seems that all the men want today is to watch a girl get hurt.

It's like watching prison sex, where dudes gang up on the new guy to make him their bitch, and try their best to make him bleed.

However, since that is the demand, the industry is simply responding to that demand.

Hell, maybe some of you people in here even hate what you have to do, and are simply doing it to put food on your plates.

Maybe some of you wish you could return to simply shooting sex on camera- sex that doesn't damage people for life, like Scott Fayner so eloquently wrote about.

A lot of the pressure to make 'Rape and Hate Porn', as I like to call it, obviously comes from societal conditions.

Let's face it- unless you happen to live on the coast of California, in a rich area, like we do...

...chicks are FAT. FAT, FAT, FUCKING FAT.

So when you finally find that one skinny, in shape white girl, it's like finding a needle in a haystack. And usually, she's underage.

It didn't used to be that way.

Problem is, since there are so few skinny, hot lookin white girls- unless you live on the coast- that when you find that needle in a haystack...she's already been offered money for sex, drugs for sex, and exposed to coke and speed and everything else- by age 14.

That's fucked up, but that's the way things are.

Therefore, there are an overabundance of guys out there, who are not as fat as the girls, who are stuck being the 'leftover salmon' after the mating season.

Guys get pissed off when the only hot chick they meet turns out to be a whore, because, by age 14, she has already been offered things girls where never offered just a few years ago.

So, what do the 'leftover salmon' do?

They go to the internet, and order movies in which a girl gets 'violated' on camera. And they enjoy watching her in pain, because it helps to sooth their anger.

If girls weren't so fucking fat all across the country, I'm positive this trend wouldn't be happening.

Since there would be a better selection of skinny, hot looking white girls, there we be a lot less anger, and a lot less demand for violent porn.

The other issue is the drugs people are doing today.

The popular drugs of today simply enhance the anger already felt by so many of today's fatherless, nearly motherless, young women.

These drugs simply accelerate the extended suicides.

Like I said in my previous post, I can't really be mad at people in the industry for what is going on today. They are simply responding to demand.

However, when you watch someone you know go into this, and you witness what we just witnessed on dvd-

-a good friend of ours TRYING to look like she's excited, TRYING to look like she's enjoying what's happening to her-

-and then you catch those moments in between, where her face turns to HORROR, and she is obviously TERRIFIED and you can see she realizes she is in WAY OVER HER HEAD-

...when you witness this, it leaves you traumatized.

Before, we were just heartbroken.

Now, we are truly traumatized.

And scared for her.

Very, very scared.

This industry is going to kill someone before there is a correction.

Mark my words- that is what will have to happen.

Someone is going to DIE, on camera, while shooting one of these HORRIFIC scenes.

That is what it will take.

And when the tape is played back, before we see the poor girl pass out, and begin to bleed to death on the set...

...we will hear her screaming, "Oh yes, oh yes, I love it, give it to me"...and acting as though she really enjoys it.

From that, we will all conclude that she wasn't in pain, that she was consenting, and that none of us should feel any guilt at all about her on camera death.

Like it or not, this is where all of this new wave of 'Rape and Hate Porn' is going...unless the industry decides to regulate itself, and dodge the bullet.

Sadly, I don't see that happening.

So, Tony, I guess those are our 'problems'.

I do thank you for not censoring my posts on here, and I think you are a strong advocate of free speech, and I applaud you for that.

We are heartbroken, we are scared, and we are sad.

Like I said before, my anger caused me to act irrationally, creating this ad, and almost dragging my wife into this horrible, horrible industry. Thank God I woke up.

We are seriously thinking about never watching porn again, or at least waiting until happiness and joy return to it.

I guess I'm old school, and I guess my wife is too.

You are free to tell me I am full of shit, or crazy, but like I said...

...for this current trend to change...

...someone is going to have to die.

And we pray, to a God that is merciful and kind, that the victim is not the girl we used to know.

I still have a heart, and I intend to keep it.

Hate me as you will.

Michael