Wow. They moved it.

I just hate wading through the enema backwash wastewater that Panzer, etc., have made of AWOP. Add to that the fact that other than sports I've receded from the real world.

After 7 years of being disabled, I've come to accept that, although I'm not going through the extremes endemic to bi-polar, the drugs leave me well enough to have about 15 effective hours a week average. I mostly numb without high and lows. But, no energy or drive. No depression but an extreme allergic reaction to even the most remote stress.

I'm not going to be able to reliably work again. Certainly not at the level I had become accustomed. I really hurts to admit that to myself.

So, I'm no longer part of mad rush I see from my window of the day-to-day world.

Also, I don't have any children, and it is clear that I won't have any. In one of the few things I agree with Hitler on, I think it would be beyond cruel to subject a descendant to the immeasurable pain of this disease. While I wouldn't ban others in my condition from opting to pass on their genes, it is something I cannot, in good conscience, do to someone I would love.

The world will go on without me and without my code. And, to me that means I don't get a say in how the world is or how it is going to be. But, it also has come to mean that I don't care what mess the rest of my species might make.

So, other than sports, I have NO INTEREST in current events, especially politics. And, other than watching them have sex or play for a team I root for, I have little to no interest in other people.


The chance of my even entering AWOP was near zero. I don't even "lurk" there. I may return to the Cage at some point, but not AWOP.

Should my condition suddenly improve and, hypothetically, Panzer, et. al., meet with, say, an unfortunate enema hose accident or be stabbed through the eye with an ice pick by an unpaid tranny hooker ... I will reconsider my position.