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I see no humor in it. It's all men hurting women and women wanting to be hurt. Why? If I develop a crush on a woman all I can think about is her getting degraded sexually by a beastly man not me and her loving in some way she cannot explain. Then I go nearly mental with anguish, anxiety, hatred, fear, and many other unpleasant emotions along those lines save for one which is a euphoric excitement underneath it all. It is so painful I want to run and scream until I can't run and scream any more. I've always felt this way. There is no relief. I just want men to stop treating women this way and I want women to stop allowing it. That is the only solution.






I can relate windsock, what I found that worked for me, was seeking comfort in someone on the other side of those issues. Think Ed Norton/Helena Bonham Carter-Burton in fight club. So in a round about way im saying, don't fight it, once you live it you will see that the reality of the situation will set you free, it will shatter the image of the fantasy you have built up in your mind.


kind regards monkey xxx ooo
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