A friend of mine jumped from a building this past Sunday. It was a surprise to everyone.

It makes me feel so angry and upset that I want to bring him back to life and beat the shit out of him. For making me feel this way.

I have had other friends suicide but there was no way to know if they had meant to do it because heroin was involved both times.

Could any XPT members share any thoughts or feelings about this with me please? I do not want sympathy at all. I would like some insight or anything else you feel would be appropriate. Or just anything you want to say.

The only interesting thing I can mention is that he seemed to distance himself from acquaintances in the preceding months and I assume that was his way of lessening the pain for those left behind. Like we would be thinking of him less so his passing would mean less.

He was named William, was age 29 and was one hell of a good bass player.

Thanks.

Again I do not want sympathy, no "sorry to hear that" stuff.

Just serious thoughts on life and suicide and it's consequences. Or anything else you folks have to say on the subject.

"I, too, have sung Death's praise
But I'm not gonna sing that song anymore
Yes, I've found out what living is all about

It's Life! Life!
Life is the only thing worth living for
Yes, Life! Life!
Life is the only thing worth . . .
Life! Life!
(I know it has its ups and downs)"
--Flipper

EDIT: it is noteworthy that when Will was younger he discovered his father dead from a suicide. (Trauma, genetics, who knows.)

EDIT AGAIN: No sympathy and no crying, but anything that would make my feel less angry. Like not want to hammer the walls with my hands would be appreciated.