Before I was ill, suicidal, medicated and disabled, I wouldn't. My family & friends would have been BEYOND vicious. And, I wouldn't have been REMOTELY interested.

Now? My family & friends would likely even have less issues with it than I would - especially if she were pregnant with my kid. Especially after my cousin and a college friend's mom offed themselves in the past two years - and both had better histories than mine.

I could bring home a black muslim prostitute ex-con and my family and friends would smile if they thought she could remotely get me to care about Life. I could likely bring home both of THE Twins and Vanessa the tranny and no one would say shit.

That's the up side of scaring them with emergency admissions. Now I could get away with anything.

[The downside is there is nothing I want.]