Self-Loathing, Burglar Style:

Here follows yet another glimpse into my world and how I see things and do what I do....

Before I ever jerk off into a whore's mouth whom I have decided to "hire" for the night, I conduct a very subtle form of interview whereby I gauge the true nature and capacity of the whore for what might follow and transpire back at my room/lair/handicap Bathroom stall. I do it without her even knowing it, I figure out through a series of questions and discussion whether or not she really can tolerate (notice I dont say "WANT" or "ENJOY") what it is I might ask her to do...and in my case, the most depraved act I would ever ask a girl, paid or otherwise, to do is sit there with her mouth open, tongue out, eyes fixed followed by [7-11]a Big Gulp[/7-11]. It is never the same from girl to girl, each has her own personality and quirks, and I would say the average is about 1 in 4 of whores I hire that end up gobbling my goo. 3/4 of them never have to even face the task because I exclude them long before the situation ever arises, and of these 3/4 most never even make it back to my room or where ever, I just pay them for a night out and wheeling me around from Bar to BAr. A few of the 3/4 I'll perpetrate a boob fuck or something of that nature on, but no gobbling.

Which is why I have my so-called "A-list", a handful of whores who I have established that special bond/relationship with, who either have a overweening desire to please me and thus, stay on the payroll, or in two or three cases in my entire life, ACTUALLY enjoy doing what I require.

Truth is this: Gobbling cum is NOT high on every woman's list of things to do with guys....most do it out of a sense of obligation or pressure or professionalism.

It is testament to our fucked up and damaged nature that we have come to view the eating of the REPRODUCTIVE FLUIDS of the male as a "normal" expression of sexuality, or as Sasha termed it, "Sexy". I have no idea why I now think about or want to jerk off into every beautiful woman's mouth I meet who isnt related to me by blood. It's fucked up....I dont think I'd be friends with Gia Jergens if I had not seen her ridiculously arousing spectacles several years ago...bizarre on some level when you think about it.

I could delve into the other side of the coin and ask why guys dont eat female reproductive byproducts, but thats just too gross even for this board.

I accept the fact that, if I were not crippled and well off, my predilection for hiring whores to do what I do would be a fucking travesty, a crime almost. But because I am who and what I am, I am seen as "cool" and full of life or whatever the fuck....

And for the record, 1 load is "sexy"...many loads, not. Fact is, after the first guy pops in Gia's mouth in her DTH scene, I shut it off. Same with any other multi-peni scene I happen to encounter.

Call me homophobic, I dont care. My penis flies solo at all times....