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The crazed gunman will be with us forever -- there are too many guns around, and no way to stop the crazies from getting ahold of one. That's why I support women learning to shoot. Smith & Wesson is the great equalizer -- a five-foot tall woman with a gun, who knows where to put the bullet, can survive an encounter with a six-foot-five ninja.

As for whether XPT is full of potential gunmen who are ready to explode in a killing frenzy because they can't wet their willies, I doubt it. Yes, there are a number of folks exposing their secret depravities (like me), and a disturbing clutch of flaming racists, but I'd guess that even Alex Panzer is a pretty normal fellow.

That dude Sodini worked at a big law firm -- K&L Gates -- kept fit, was essentially good-looking, and bought his shirts at Brooks Brothers. His personality must have been some kind of creepy, that's all I have to say. Big law firms are chock full of sweet-ass pussy, what with all the young women starting their careers there. He couldn't fuck one of those little whores in 10 years at K&L Gates? Weak sauce.

I've stuck it to four secretaries and two associates over the years, myself. Office Christmas party, yay.




I think that people like to make monsters out of people like this guy in an effort to comfort themselves.

You know, the logic goes like this: "The more different he is from us normal folks, the less likely we are to identify with him and scare ourselves... so let's make him a horrible monster who was creepy and weird and hated women!"

I just watched a couple of his videos. He is a bit off, but no weirder than anybody at your local Walmart right this minute. He never complained or mentioned problems at work or other more general relationship problems other than wanting to be in a relationship with a woman. There is absolutely no indication at all that he hated women before his murder suicide pact surrounded by the one thing he wanted.

Once there was a guy who shot himself outside the student lounge/front lobby of a school I was at. I was sitting in class a few yards away (on the other side of a wall) and even heard the shot, but it was nothing much to notice and nobody found him until class let out. We all wondered what to make of it, was it an angry act of hatred to us or our school or both? Part of the "mental health" assistance that was provided included a meeting with the students that were there that day and found the body. It was revealed that the guy who killed himself was rejected for admission there. It was not an act of hatred, but a gesture of something closer to love or desire that he wanted to die in that particular building surrounded by us.

I suspect that this guy was just socially awkward either to the extreme of some sort of mild Autism like disorder or Social Anxiety Disorder or maybe a less extreme, more mild condition. In any event, I suspect there was not an ounce of hatred for women, just a lot of hatred for himself and frustration over being rejected by what he wanted causing him to feel more inadequate and a general impending dread of getting older and dying alone and having "wasted" his life as the big 50 years old was looming in front of him.

I know, my version is pretty fucking scary. Not a monster to be found, there are even emotions there that normal (non-monster) people can relate to. Can this really be true?


Edit: Ok so there are supposedly tapes of him complaining of problems at work, but I couldn't find them. Just some comments on his blog about being afraid of being laid off, but then he got a promotion and a raise!!

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