Well things are going....I have good days and bad days...

Yes I still have the same daughter. It looks as if she will be with me until she turns 18. Her father doesn't want her back and social worker says that he would never be able to get her back anyway. They won't let him terminate his rights (he wants to) unless they have an adoptive resource....But she isn't sure she wants to be adopted but wants to continue to live here. I live in a small town and her family is every where and by 11 she has bonded with them. Most days that is okay but would be easier if we lived even just a few towns over.

We have taken so far 2 vacations and may do a one day trip to Wisconsin Dells if she can keep her room clean and the remodeling project slows down(so far isn't happening). She has been through a lot and has pretty much normalized the disfunction she has grown up with. I would love to say that her dad being in jail is the only thing stopping me from beating his ass for what he put her and her sister through. But the reality is with him being 6'9 and over 400lbs, I'm sure I would only say hello if I saw him.

She absolutely HATES that I am a teacher.

I became a mother on March 24 and have only had sex once since then. I have not figured this whole single parent sex thing yet. As of 3 days ago i am starting to see how common everyday household items can possibly be used as a dildo. Got to find some real soon. My last boyfriend broke up with me because she was not supportive of me being a foster mom. He wanted me to have his kid which I wouldn't for my own (dad approved)reasons.

The housing market makes me not able to move into a bigger house complete with a rec room (tired of kid shit in my living room) but I am in the process of turning my dark damp basement into a "BEAR CAVE", complete with Fatheads and blue and orange paint. Unfortunately I am also making a art/craft room for the whole family fun create shit moments that young girls (before discovery of boys) are so fond of.

All in all I am having a fun time. I get a great sense of pride from helping a child that really had no place else to go. Sometimes I wish I had taken a baby but I know that wouldn't be helping as much because everyone wants babies. It's the older kids or the large sibling groups that no one wants. Guess I have just found another way to change the world one child at a time.