Doubtful it's a suicide note. She probably just realized that she's amounted to nothing in life so far and finally decided to get a job. Of course, being the attention whore that she is, she makes it sound more dramatic than actual. That pm sounds like some pathetic Sasha Grey press release. I'm sure it took her hours to write that one little paragraph with all her deleting and re-writes just to craft the perfect words to pull your heart strings. Or create a mystique.