Kimi Lixx talking about weird fetishes....

"I have mentioned in other threads that I was an abused child. There was a particular act my abuser performed that was generally the culmination of an episode. Over 8 years of abuse, and thousands of episodes, I developed a "focus" on that culminating act. I am sure it originally just contained the knowledge that the unpleasantness was just about to be done with, but over time the 'looking forward to a lack of unpleasantness' transmuted into 'looking forward to pleasantness' and eventually, in my adult life and absent from the abuse, into pleasure in the act itself.
It isn't healthy. I am stuck with it. I have tried to push it out of my mind. I have tried to decline the opportunity to indulge it. I have never been successful - not even once. If it's offered, I take it. Every time I am physically able to indulge in it (which is exceedingly rare - no more than a handful of times in 25 years), there is a heavy burden of guilt and shame and associated memory. Unfortunately, my sexual fantasy life revolves almost entirely around it - pretty much every time I masturbate it's there, even when I actively try to fantasize something else."

She won't say what this "culmination act" was during her abuse. Maybe stepdad whipped it out of her underaged asshole and wiped it across her upper lip. Maybe he'd make her bite down on a favorite teddy bear. Or perhaps it involved him reciting the Fifth Commandment over and over again while he pummelled her orifice relentlessly to build up to an orgasm? She was being raped by a Baptist pedophile after all.

Whatever it was, you have to remember that this is a bonafide porn whore who has done just about all sorts of vile things in her sex life, willingly and repeatedly. So what in the hell could her abuse have consisted of that is so bad that she can't even talk about it? She says herself that this is somethings that she rarely encounters in her life outside the abuse she received for 8 years, prior to running away and marrying a Minnonite.

Whatever this culiminating act was, it makes watching her old scenes all the better just knowing how badly she is damaged.

that's quite a revelation - an older sex worker actually claiming she was abused sexually, to illicit responses on a porn board, and then "can't talk about it further (sniff)." next she'll admit she likes starbucks and everyone has to guess which flavor. Ya gotta love ADT.

one look and the answer to the mystery becomes "who cares".

I was thinking maybe her dad did ass-to-pussy.

I'd bet a dollar she likes being pissed on.