With me it is real simple....In addition to having a crapload of medical reasons to gobble pills by the handful, I've also attained a position in life where I am no longer responsible for anyone else except ME (I dont need to work except on things I voluntarily choose, I no longer drive myself anywhere but have hired drivers, so I need not worry about crashing into anyone with a motor vehicle, and I am not committed to any person who might feel the need or right to "clean" me up.) That being said, I can readily admit to being, at times, PHYSICALLY dependent on such things as opiates, but not ADDICTED. There is a difference between dependence and addiction....

I have NEVER EVER been to any type of rehab or therapy for substances. Anytime I feel I want to stop taking <whatever>, or feel the need to take a break, I simply do so, and I suck it up and endure the physical withdrawal symptoms for the several days that they last. I can do this for a number of reasons...most people who take drugs like Oxy or Morphine require a "tapering" or methadone program to get PHYSICALLY off the drugs. I do not, mainly because the pain I suffer that causes me to take the drugs in the first place is far worse than any temporary withdrawal syndrome, however miserable THAT may be. Withdrawal is shortlived, I know there is a light at the end of that tunnel....the pain of my conditions is NOT shortlived, it is permanent and intractable.

Now I could become a total drug addled basket case, surrendering to both my disease's pain and the lure that opiates hold to make life "Bliss" but I do not. I simply DO NOT...maybe I am lucky, or maybe I am just a strong willed prick, or both.

"My experience" encompasses many friends and acquaintances in all walks of life and professions, but a large portion of them are indeed in the adult entertainment biz (strippers, escorts, and a few porn stars) upon whose expreience I observe and draw conclusions.

What I said about Holly is what I believe the truth to be, but I am not trying to change Holly's mind...she obviously has strong convictions about herself and her experience, and bottom line, they are working for her. Im speaking out on behalf of the failure of Mary Carey ONCE AGAIN to right her ship and not fall into the black hole of her addiciton. My experience includes knowing many people who have gone through rehab, often several times, and still struggle and fall apart and even die in the end.

I am not the only one to distrust modern rehab treatments and strategies. A large and growing body of people now recognize that treatment and therapy alone do not work for the majority of addicts, especially in the wake of drugs like Meth, and the purer forms of Heroin that now flood the streets.

The best hope for addicts who you love is for them to either learn to conquer the situation on their own, or to become FUNCTIONAL users, like a Mia Rose. She is able to blitz for a while, stop and come down/clean up...maintain for a while, and then use again in such a way that doesnt snuff her life out or irreparably damage it. I have the utmost respect and for chicks like her that can do that. They find an equilibrium between using and functioning and turn into really fun and cool people to be around.


FYI -- My Holly Shrine is long gone, but I stand by what i said about her and women like her having a far better chance of success with rehab than other more damaged and debauched girls.