I can't believe her polluted and diseased womb can support a Placenta.

In January, 2009, I cried out to God to please help me and told Him I couldn’t live like this anymore. I told Him I would give myself to Him if He would help me. The next few days I made some phone calls and moved back home. It felt so good to see them and a burst of energy ran through my body. God kept His promise and rescued me from the porn industry.

Now that I am out of the business and away from the horrible porn lifestyle I am excited to receive a special gift from God to have a baby and start my life over. Yes, I am pregnant and single but I know God has a plan for me. He even helped me overcome my addictions and I have been sober ever since I left. Everyday is a challenge and but as long as I practice and follow His steps I know He will not give up on me.

I have learned my addictions are parasites and suck the life out of me. I have learned that my addictions are alcohol, prescription pills, drugs, doing porn and sex work. Yes most definitely my addictions have promised me pleasure and have consumed my thoughts, time, money and energy. They have stolen away my loyalty and heart for those I love and who love me. I am determined I will never live that old life again and that I must destroy my addictions and if I don’t they will destroy me again.

I was talking with some friends and they brought up Shelley Lubben and the Pink Cross Foundation. I looked up her site on the internet and emailed her. The next day I was contacted by the Pink Cross staff and was sent a beautiful care package. I received a very nice card from Shelley and it meant so much to me. I met up with her and had such a wonderful time with her we talked and had such a yummy lunch. I am so happy to have Shelley and the Pink Cross support me and help me through my recovery and pregnancy. I really admire her and think that she is an amazing and beautiful person inside and out and a true leader.

I am very proud to be a part of Pink Cross because they are helping me rebuild my faith and most importantly build a strong healthy relationship with my family. I am especially thankful to my Lord Jesus Christ for setting me free and making me a totally new creation! My hope is that everyone reading my story will stop viewing porn and stop hurting women like me who get sucked into the lie of the porn industry and instead let God heal you like He is doing for me. We’re all made for something better than porn.

I love you and am praying for you,

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I have learned my KIDS are parasites and suck the life out of me

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Yes, I am pregnant and single but I know God has a plan for me

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So basically, Michelle, you're saying you don't have any plans for yourself? Life just happens as it happens and why should you control it or set goals? You barely have a pot to piss in, and now with a baby, you'll never break even let alone getting ahead.

Tomorrow she'll see something the sparkle of the sun hitting a paper clip and her opinion will change. Its not that these whores are too stupid or mental for porn, they are too dumb or damaged to live life without someone telling them what to do. Once GOD'S PLAN leads her to stocking grannie panties at Wal Mart, some assistant manager is going to convince her that the way to enlightenment is dropping her kid off at his house for a sleep over. And so the circle will be complete.

Disclaimer: I'm drunk after dealing with NYC traffic and need to vent some anger.

I have to admit that there are some girls that Shelley Lubben can actually help. Think about it. Michelle has no family, no guidance, no nothing. I think it's clear that she isn't capable of making adult decisions on her own either.

I think this is the type of girl that Shelley is good at dealing with. Again, I just wish she would stick to that and not try to convert everyone else.

The last time I saw Michelle Avanti, she was sitting on a bench outside of the Cheesecake Factory high as a kite. She was just sitting there, so a bunch of us invited her to join us for dinner. She didn't say anything during the meal, but just drank a shitload of alcohol. Then we all left and she was just sitting there on the bench again. I really don't think she had anywhere to go. Sad.

If Shelley advised her to go ahead and have the baby, I wouldn't say that's helping her make sound adult decisions.

Actually I talked to Michelle about her pregnancy after she left the biz and was already living back at home. She decided to have it before she ever got involved with Lubben.

I havent talked to her since Lubben, but it seemed like her family was being supportive and I think they pushed her towards Lubben so that she would never come back into the industry.

As for it being a trick's kid, I dont think so. I dont even think the father knew she was in porn -- god help him when he finds out.

This is really good news. Get cleaned up. Get that baby out, get in shape and get back to Chatsworth to continue your blossoming career in porn.

Thank you, Jezus.

God, I did a quick interview with Michelle about seven months ago for Charlie. I don't even think she was making movies at that point, I think she was just dancing.

She sounded legitimately happy when I talked to her, or at least she sounded like she had her shit together. All this crap is kind of confusing.

It could be that if she's pregnant she's got a bad case of baby brain (Hormone shift) and she's not thinking clearly.

She might just be panicking because the porn moneys drying up and she needs money for diapers and formula, and if Lbben's willing to give it to her, well... she is a whore right? Isn't it her job to say and act the way the client wants her too?

I think Michelle might not have changed at all. I think her client base may have changed radically, that's all. After all, if you're a churchy guy, is there a better score than a former pornstar like Sierra Sinn or Michelle Avanti? Seriously, are those girls going to complain about ANYTHING you do to them?