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The notoriety she gets from the rehab shows (which is much greater than porn fame) has to be as addicting as drugs for someone like her. She seems to have the textbook stripper mentality of seeking constant affirmation wherever she can get it. And of course a whore defines affirmation much differently than healthy, well-adjusted people ("it's ok daddy, you can touch me").

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Its sad but it was that simple with her:
She'd go out of her way to do all these stupid stripper appearances every week where she'd net $3-$5K (on a good weekend) but spend two days traveling and jet lagged the fuck out for days. I could see the travel took its toll on her and why she was popping Xanax, and she'd just get trashed at the clubs. Most appearances usually required some sort of radio or local interview that could turn into a stressful shit storm. I'm pretty sure she was addicted to the strip club attention.

Yet her video contract with Legend at the time was for close to $80K for the year and six movies...and only had to film six or ten day days THE WHOLE FUCKING YEAR. Thats like $12,000 a day. Yet she showed up trashed out of her mind to the set, if she showed up at all.

(Maybe Willie D can comment on this as he seems to know a bit more about the Legend situation) She even claimed Legend wanted to bump up to 12 movies a year and $150,000. I was shocked they would even consider that.


Just typical porn rationality: Be all punctual when you're stripping for strangers for $2 grand for the day, but be uber late to film as a contract star for $12 grand.