"I am certainly not the smartest on this board"---whoa Brandon. You sell yourself way too short. If anybody dares say this I will challenge them with pistols at dawn. Everyone on this board agrees that you are far and away the most intelligent ever.
I am intrigued by your appearance to be struggling with spirituality. Are you having a "crisis of conscience"? I suggest you get a confessor and repent. You will burn. Perhaps you should have your medication adjusted and go into therapy. As St. Francis said in the line you did not quote:"Where there is stupidity let me sow silence" Guess he felt certain people should not post on public boards.
How did you get that very enlightening post to be deleted on this thread? Many points you should have answered. Au revoir mon cher.