I understand Mia... I have the same problem. My fantasies have become pretty sick, though they thankfully haven't advanced to the bestiality genre. I don't even bother watching porn anymore-- what I actually like is erotic stories. Try www.lit-erotica.com they've got some pretty good ones.
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I really try to retain a respectful distance from my models, even when I'm lubing up their pussies.