OMG that was fucking great. I was on the floor laughing. (lurid take note from lowdown when you try to insult me). You just wrote a fucking novel of a post, i must REALLY get to you. I give you an encouraging pat on the forehead and a big giant A for effort. I really feel a lot of anger in your post, it reminds me of that scene from good will hunting. I have said this before to someone, it might of been you. The scene with robin williams and matt damon, when he robin tells matt its not your fault over and over because he was bused by his father as a child, and they share a nice great man hug when matt breaks down crying. I feel we are close to one of those moments lowdown. I will wait for you to compose yourself.