I'm currently in Salton City. This is the shittiest place I've ever been to. It stinks, there is nothing here, it's fscking hot and everything we build falls apart. There's puddles of stagnant water everywhere too which doesn't help. What started out as a 2 day excursion has turned out to be a near 2 week clusterfuck. I also noticed the following things are wrong with me:

I hate people taking pictures of me- or around me. Actually any camera clicking anywhere near me makes me feel awkward. I also feel awkward talking to new people or having to make small talk with people I'm not used to or for the first time.

I have a heart murmur. Because of this I'm deathly afraid of electricity or anything that shoots sparks, especially when I have to work with it. I honestly always think I'm going to get electrocuted and 98% of the time I am.

I dread making phone calls or picking up the phone, especially to take care of important matters. I'll always look for alternative avenues.

I hate going to sleep- but I love sleeping. I loath going to bed anytime before 11pm. I'm currently near a prison and sometimes at night we can hear the inmates. I figure I've heard about 3 rapes so far. It also takes me quite some time to fall asleep. This doesn't help because our camera guy sleep walks and the other day he was bumping into shit so I ended up sleeping even later than I should have.

I have what is known as a cats tongue. More on this later.

I'm very impatient when listening to kids. A couple of kids were trying to tell me something the other day and I found myself not listening at all. Kids take forever to say shit. Also I noticed sometimes I'll ask someone their name, and completely not focus on what they say. This then results in me referring to them later as "man".

I hate dishes in the sink. And I hate it when people say they'll do the dishes then end up not doing them. Also I've found myself not trusting how well peeps are doing the dishes. Regardless of how clean the knife and forks look I've found myself wiping them with a paper towel.

I also started having very strange dreams 4 nights ago. One of them resulted in sleep paralysis which I told the medic about. He said I need to get more sleep but I highly doubt this is the case. Today's dream was fucking terrible.

So how are you holding up?