i have a foot fetish and work at a womens shoe store. i have been there for two months and have taken masturbating into customers shoes in the stockroom. i recently blew a load into a pair of shoes right before i brought them out for a customer. after she tried them on and removed her feet from the shoes, she asked me what the white substance that coated the soles of her feet was. i told her it was disinfectant we spary into shoes. it was a close call, but i cant control my actions and want to do it more often. is this normal?