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Christ, Fatty, you're a mess. What's kept you from falling on your sword? What motivates you to get out of bed in the morning? I'm genuinely interested.



The sword? The pain a suicide would unfairly cause my parents and brother is most of what keeps me struggling. Though I came close last year.


The bed? Many days, especially many this summer, I don't get out of bed.


I think with the prospect of my brother moving back to the environs of NYC, things might be looking up. Certainly I'm in an up mood about it. He's planning on moving 1 town north of here and I'm likely taking in his cat ... at least for a while. So he'll be over quite a bit. And, likely forcing me out to help him with shit.

He's pretty hard on me but he cares about me alot. We don't have much in common. And, so we don't really talk that much. I'm a loner and he's gregarious as the come. He's completely organized and has no attachment to the past. I'm completely unorganized and rarely part with a thing. I treat women like goddesses, and they shit on me. He treats them like shit, and they adore him. He's youthful, vibrant and incredibly funny.

I'll benefit from his hard, honest voice. He's good at finding strengths in me and finding ways of bringing them out. I'm also not good at telling him "NO" - so I'll likely get dragged into doing things I either don't want to do or think I can't do - and I think that might be a very good thing.
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