I remain mostly in hiding.

Thx for all the well wishes. Hopefully once the election is over I will be returning.

I've been at a heightened anxiety since late May. There are a variety of factors:

**It started with the changing of doctors, groups, treatment and drugs [due to changes in my healthcare].

**I struggle with the polarization of this election and the depths of bitterness it creates. It's likely the main reason I've taken a "vacation" from the board and the net in general.

**My continued disability [It's been 4 years now. I had so fervently hoped to be better and working by now]

**Plus all the other nonsense - like wanting to beat the shit out of my stepfather for his behavior during and after my Mom's unfortunate fall and the daily drama of my battling neighbors [which happily doesn't involve me].

I stopped going out much and so stopped my walks. Thus I've gained about 20-25 lbs. My knees are killing me.

In all honesty, I've mostly been off the net .... except to download the occasional Lexi Belle, Marie McCray or Brynn Tyler scene [or ANYTHING from Amateur Allure - LOVE that site. I also like XXXProposal, but more on that later ...]. And, I look for new Casey Parker stuff, but there doesn't seem to be any.



I'm coming out of it a bit. The comedy that is Sarah Palin helps. Her "fruit fly" shit on Friday was classic!! I guess once you deny evolution, the entire science of Biology has no relevance.

Interesting article on that ...
http://slate.com/id/2203120


Though, I have to admit, the erosion of McCain's image pains me greatly. It's like an epic Greek tragedy. I really liked and respected this man. I gave him money in 2000. I would have voted for him and what he stood for THEN. And, no matter what happens, I will strive to retain that image of the original John McCain. The one who would have chosen Lieberman or Charlie Crist as his running mate. Not, I repeat, NOT this pathetic figure who sold his soul to the rural white right rump* called "the base" [I assume for representing the most lowest, most depraved elements of what is otherwise a noble party which at times I agree with and others I do not].


I'm slowly returning to my ways.

I just spent 2 weeks in FL. One week was at a resort right on the ocean. I enjoyed that greatly.


Yesterday I had a rough flight home with a connection in Richmond. Is that "real" or "fake" Virginia???


Be well.






* - paraphrasing conservative David Frum's take on the problems of his own party - though it is fair to note that he's a foreign-born Jew from a major city and thus not a "real American" to the rump. You may have seen him on "Colbert". He gets the credit for the term "Axis of Evil" when he was working for "W".