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Wednesday, July 25, 2007

gosh 8 am is early
Current mood: chipper

sooooo...
i have been in a very bad mood the last few days....and if you know me, i mean REALLY know me, you know why...if you dont know why, dont ask. haha...just know that my dreary grey days are slipping away...and my sun is starting to shine....i really have a few, and i mean VERY FEW, good people in my life, but it's all about quality and not quantity any more....i have been weeeding the retards, jerks, assholes, losers, users, and bitch ass's out of my life...with pleasure!!!!

i love myself!!!
i love my family!!!
i love my man!
AND i love my true friends....and i am soooo happy to have em!

my chinchilla died....that is one thing that has really been attacking my demeanor....i loved baby ganja, he was a good pet, and some stupid bitch named kayla killed him!!!
i hate her!! if u c her, call her a murder and pray for her soul. lol i am half kidding about the calling her a murder thing, although i already did on several occasions, hahaha very loudly, cause thats what she is, a murderer.

on a side note, i burried my chinchilla, opposed to turning him into a mitten, hahahaha, cause people thought it would be weird, although i thought it would be a great way to commemorate his death, and keep my purty lil hands warm. lol but i was informed that, turning a pet, even if it is the most saught after fur in the world, into mittens, is apparently morbid or something... (how about slippers? lol, jk, kinda!)

sooooo, any way....
UPDATE!

i am sooooooo soooooo sooooo soooo soooooooo happy to have quit porn....i hate porn!!! fuck dude! i hate it....i have for a long time and i am so happy now that i am picking up the pieces of my formerly jaded existence...i sincerely appolojize to anyone that i have wronged, and one day i hope i can make it up to you!

i am lookin for a j.o.b.
i cant even believe it...didnt expect to have a 9-5 anytime soon, but times are a changin' my friends, and so am i!!!

i AM continuing to work on my art projects and the shirts i am selling..





.and all you stupid haters with nothing better to do than talk shit about a lil girl trying to strtaighten up her life, SHAME ON YOU!!!! i am not even gonna curse you out or try to justify myself to u or anyone else...cause in the grand scheme of things, i am happy, and you apparently aren't.

Life is far too short my friends, to waste it on hate!! and you know what else...I FORGIVE YOU!!!
this is a lesson i am struggling to learn, as i do have a lot of pain and anger in my heart, that i am beggining to let go, and see that god does have a plan for me!! and that i am going to succeed, no not suck seed! lol i am going to rise up and conquer the world, or at least my world, lol.

i am still a ninja, heck i am still a sexual ninja, BUT ONLY FOR MY MAN!!
cause, truthfully babies, thats how it IS supposed to be....

well my lil fingers are tired and i could sure use a cup of coffee and some strawberries and cream oatmeal....

oh yeah and guess what....I DONT SMOKE WEED ANYMORE!!
i am not saying i will never smoke it again, not at all...hahaha but i am certainly not smoking every day all day, and u know what is funny...my life is waaaaay more productive!!

so peace love and jungle music!!!

love
ME

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