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Ladies and gents, I feel like we have failed Holly. Were we there for her when she was hurting inside or did we just use her to basely satisfy our own sinful desires?

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I know you're kidding here Luke, but if anything, YOU used me when I was "hurting inside". When I was in rehab you posted that private matter on your site, and used it as a springboard to rail against those with addiction problems, which you claimed that you've experienced yourself. I find that people's practiced intolerance towards others and their beliefs reflects a personal inablity to forgive, and ultimately love, oneself. You claimed that I "lack self-control", you bemoaned my "moral failings", and you said the support I recieved for my decision "nauseated" you. A lot of people were there for me... unfortunately, you were not. It's in the past and I'm over it-- and though I don't hold a grudge against you for it, re-reading it just now again reminded me how conflicted you are inside. I hope that changes for you someday. Honestly.

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Reading Holly's statements here brought back to my mind the conversation we had last week when I finally had a chance to meet her. Holly did not engage in any vitriolic rant against Luke when we talked...she did not sit there and go over ALL his faults and shortcomings and "OFIs" (Opportunities For Improvement), but rather she talked about how sad she was for him in his seeming unhappiness, how much she wished she could help him and how concerned she was for him. This struck me as remarkable that she would say these kind and loving things about Luke to me one on one, instead of letting me in on ALL the dirt on Luke, given my own exposure and interaction with Luke over the last several years (afterall, the man was a mentor/moral leader/colleague to me and at one point handed over control of his website to me for four days without even knowing me really!)... and this lack of anger and spite on Holly's part clues anyone in as to what Holly really is like inside.

Now I (and others ... I am not alone in this) may spend a lot of time here at XPT with puerile observations and lustful fingerpointing about Holly's beautiful external self and her fine qualities in the physical realm, but only because this is in fact a PORN board and to sit here and write effusive comments about Holly's compassionate and loving "inner self" instead of her ass, while the website is surrounded by pictures of women doused in and consuming semen, is somehow disingenuous. But Holly KNOWS (because of another one of her strengths, a healthy sense of humor and self deprecation) that I am being intentionally silly and overboard, and she take sit in stride (and secretly may even LOVE it! )

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3. Any time he starts a thread with the line "I feel we have failed insert porn name here"
4. I bet he still has that leather jacket too.
5. On the plus side, he's Burg's love rival.

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HA! Love Rival? Dude, Holly made it perfectly clear to me that, while I do have a few good qualities, I could NEVER even Hope to compete with Luke when it comes to this area. And I accept this because, in tune with her compassionate and HONEST nature, she didnt want to give me, da burglar, any false hope that might lead to heartache and pain down the road when she takes another man (probably not Luke but who knows..?) to the XPT prom instead of ME! SHe made it very clear that I am a good dear friend, but that she doesnt do anything with four wheels. Luke is simply more intelligent, better looking and more "manly" than I could ever hope of being...I am no more his rival than a rowboat Rivals the USS Nimitz!