A reference to her in the "Courtney! Courtney! Say my name! Leave a comment on my myspace! Ooops, my mom is coming downstairs!" chat made me look up Eva's stats on lukeisback:

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i'm sorry to say but that extra baggage that i got rid of ended up tragically... this mourning i found out that my boyfriend had killed himself because i left him on saturday. im still in shock and i don't want to believe that i have cause so much pain in his life...i'm scared now because i know he really is gone and i can't do anything to change this. i have felt a pain in my veins and in my heart that i hope none of you will have to feel. but unfortunately i'm left to feel this anguish and sorrow that my other half is gone and i will never be able to make love to him, breathe his air, or touch his skin ever again... f-ck! i hate what has happened to me...when im trying so hard to focus on one thing, something so heart breaking takes you away from everthing and you can only think of the pain in your heart. so painful that you literally are sick to your stomach. thats what i hate. my love is now gone. hes left me!

he had a lot of problems but me starting porn again only made it worse.

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in the past two weeks i have gone through a journey that is hard to put to words... all i know is that i have seen the darkest and i am ready to see the light. i have had my nervous breakdown and reached the lowest i will ever allow myself to be. there is a reason why he took his life... he wanted me to do my best to suceed in porn even though he could not live here on earth to see it. i can't let myself go to waste. he didn't want to keep me from this anymore than he already had. i hate that he could not be okay with it but i except why he wasn't... he wanted me to be only his. i now know what i need to do...he did not die for nothing. i will do my best in every scene i shoot in hopes that i can fulfill my dreams... just like he wanted me to do. i shot my first b/g scene back with digital playground today and it was amazing. i felt like i was on a whole new level of performing, a new energy i had waiting inside...ready to erupt and boy did it! i feel revitalized and ready to make him proud.



I picture him on that cloud in heaven, looking down on her first double anal scene. "Yes! Yes, baby, yes. That is what I wanted. Take those two cocks in your ass for ME. For the lover who killed himself because he couldn't stand to see you do porn! That is the most beautiful tribute to our love that I could possibly imagine. Of course, our combined IQs don't scrape double-digits, so what do I know?

Hot fucking whore, though. She does anal now, I understand.
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[The movie business] is a cruel and shallow money trench, a long plastic hallway where thieves and pimps run free, and good men die like dogs. There is also a negative side. - Hunter S. Thompson